Thanks to
crazyace86 linking me to some SUPERHOT pics of Jared Padalecki, I have FINALLY figured out why it is that I can't choose between Sam and Dean.
It's like this:
Sam is the kind of intelligent, friendly, fun-but-slightly-serious guy I would be friends with and eventually fall madly in love with but never put the moves on because I'd figure he wasn't interested. He'd also figure I wasn't interested and never put the moves on
me, and years later we'd figure this out and be like "wow, we were idiots" but the time for things would have already passed.
Dean is the kind of guy who I would check out, get caught checking out, get asked out by, and then ditch after a date or two even though I liked him well enough, just because I'm slightly uncomfortable with REALLY HOT AND KIND OF MANLY men (which is weird because they're the main kind I go out with). He would probably call a few times and leave confused messages on my voicemail, and the next time I ran into him I he'd be a bit confused and hurt but play it cool and somehow we'd end up going out again, only for the process to repeat (this is the story of my dating life: LAME).
So there it is. The totally dumb reason I can't choose between them: they are just too good at being nearly like people I've actually known and liked. GODDAMN, SPN, WHY YOU GOTTA MAKE MY LIFE SO HARD? TWO CRUSHES IN ONE SHOW IS TOO MUCH WHEN THEY'RE IN SO MANY SCENES TOGETHER. I DON'T KNOW WHO TO LOOK AT.
Also,
this picture of Jared (
slippyslope, I recommend you check it out!) is the least straight thing I've ever seen. It's not even gay. It has surpassed gay and gone straight into UNICORNS. Jared Padalecki is fucking MADE OF UNICORNS in that picture, and I am not even kidding. (eta: slippyslope informs me that Jared is actually sparkly balloons and not unicorns, according to supernaturalwiki. CLOSE ENOUGH. I STILL THINK "UNICORNS" IS A MUCH BETTER HIGHER LEVEL OF BEING THOUGH. MUCH RARER THAN SPARKLY BALLOONS.)
And I'll tell you what-- you don't laugh at me for semi-shipping Dean/Cassie (just a teeny tiny bit, honest), I won't say anything about Dean/Jo. XD (Honestly, it's fandom, which automatically means "shipping free for all" to me.)
Sam actually kind of reminds me of another Sam-- Sam Beckett from Quantum Leap. Doesn't he? I mean, he's like the boy next door in personality, would be an absolute darling to any girl or guy he fell for, and wants that happy, normal family life. And Dean... Dean is Al to me. He's goodhearted, but a bit of a player, and it's my personal canon that he has gotten drunk at least once and woke up married, lol. But that he believes what they say about Vegas, and that's that. XD
Yeah, Dean, I think, can't really function without his family. I mean, even when he was doing solo trips while Sam was at college, I'm still thinking he kept immediate regular contact with their dad, and that's why he freaked so much when he hadn't heard from him in a few days; because, really, I get the impression that John could be gone for weeks at time, and so a few days wouldn't have been unusual. And now that John's gone, Dean needs Sam on a level that probably surpasses any family relation. I don't necessarily mean Wincest, either, although I totally love it, but that Sam is everything, his heaven and earth, his home. That's why I totally believed the deal he made. He probably would have made it for one damn day if it meant that Sam came back.
Sam... Sam could live without Dean, and both he and Dean know that; they know he could move on. But Sam doesn't want to, he doesn't want to live a place that Dean's not a part of, somehow, some way. And throughout the third season-- don't worry, no real spoilers coming-- you see the difference in him. He still wholeheartedly believes he will save Dean, but he also talks about when Dean's gone.
Dean sold his soul for his brother by make a deal with the devil, so to speak; Sam sold his soul for Dean by making a deal with himself. That he would do whatever it took, even become like him, in order to keep him alive somehow.
And I babbled. Whoops. Man, nine days until the season premiere. ARGH.
AHAHA STEAK. That was fun. I don't think I've ever had steak. I'm not a big meat eater; not a vegetarian by any stretch, but I don't really crave meat that much at all. *shrugs*